when sagey was here, she was the most grown up. she was sleek and wore heels and lipstick. she smoked only the occasional cigarette. she read about environmental policy many hours each day. i saw windsor right after, and she said, yes, she is less, "i burn." i thought about this, and my self and my life. i have this job and in it i am responsible and i bear many things and i am a role model. i have learned to take care of myself, i have learned to root myself in the ground, i have learned to tap into the endless well of compassion inside me, i have learned to access creative solutions quickly. i have learned the calm in the eye of the storm. i have learned the ultimate "pretend you're brave and you're actually brave."

in my personal life, in my personal life, this some spills over. but also...i burn. i BURN.